凝固的回忆

I am back!! muahahahaz... in case u r wondering what happen to me.. a lot of things happened to me during these weeks and it definitely make me see things in a different light.. in other words, I learnt to be appreciative of everything.. I was down with dengue and was hospitalised for a period of 5 days in CDC.. the conditions there is really horrible.. it is like a nightmare.. and I shiver at the thought of it.. cos of dengue, I have to miss my Chem and LEP paper.. so.. this year Promos is surely memorable..haaz.. cos I didn't complete my Promos..
Allow me to use this entry to thank a few people who really were there for me and offered me their hand when I needed it.. maybe they had no idea what they have done to me.. but still wish to thank them.. first is my parents, they really showed tender care and concern.. in past, I tot that parents looking after their children when they are sick. It is something they should do.. it is their duty.. but now.. I think it is not.. it is not a right.. the days when I was hospitalised was a rough patch for me.. there was no air con no TV.. and I have to endure needles and blood tests.. I vomitted everything I ate.. got to put on a drip and got injections to prevent begin dehydrated.. it is really depressing those days.. when u can't really eat anything.. not that u don't want.. you just can't eat.. everything just comes out undigested.. it is gross.. really.. and u have to acknowledge the news of ur dropping platelet count..as there is no medicine for dengue, it is a battle of ur immune system and the virus.. nurses kept telling me.. u must eat and drink.. then u will have the immunity to win the battle.. but at that time, I really cannot eat anything.. so is like not I don't want.. I can't seem to.. I also want to get well.. much as I want to be discharged, I can't due to my blood count.. so in the end, I ended up breaking down.. crying in the ward.. thanks to my parents who were there all along for me..
Next, there are a lot of friends I am thankful to.. but there are a few which I would love to specially thank them..Bin, u noe what u have done.. thanks for whatever u and ur mom had done.. u both really offered sound advice and reassurance that I needed during that period and thanks for taking time off to come and visit me, chat with me. I really tot I am dying.. I am so afraid I cannot make it.. really.. I am so afraid of my blood count.. 37 to me was very low.. from 286 to 37..I was so afraid I had to have a blood tranfusion.. luckily don't need.. I think u understood me then.. and the encouragement u offered me then was really like 'xue zhong song tan'..
secondly, there is Sam.. gal, thanks for what u have done ok.. peiing me through the dark lonely and sleepless night.. I was feeling low when I spoke to you.. cos that was the day our Promos ended.. everyone must be enjoying then.. luckily u called and thanks really a lot for ur encouragement.. perharps u have no idea.. but ur encouragement was what I held on to for the next few days.. I kept telling myself to bear with it and not give up..treat it like a holiday.. and it helped.. wonders.. thanks, Sam..
Lastly, there are a whole bunch of friends who sent their sms over but I didn't reply cos I don't have the energy to at that time.. and also to all teachers.. thanks for their concern..
lucky to say, all is over now.. let just this be a nightmare and get over with it.. I am now on my road to recovery.. so friends who are worrying me, do not be.. cos my current platelet count for today is 148.. haaz.. 150 is normal.. so I am recovering fast.. I am looking forward to going back to school to see u all soon.. as for old friends, let's fix a place to meet up soon ya? : ) This illness has made me stronger.. and not take things for granted.. really.. maybe it is a bit kua zhang but I am thankful for my recovery and everything that is in my life now..