release of the a levels results on wed.. everyone's mood wasn't right that day.. all seems affected by it even though we aren't the ones receiving the results.. didn't went to see the release of results. I just stayed at the stage area, looking up at the hall and I can just sense the tension.. worried for myself.. this day next year.. I want to see myself smiling contentedly when I come down the stairs.. 3A's.. B3 for GP.. that's my Aim.
looking back, I realise that I hadn't been putting much effort in my work for the past year.. I hadn't been doing enough, hadn't been scarificing enough.. what I am doing isn't even enough.. I didn't even fulfil my responsibility to complete all tutorials on time..it is time I should end all this.. I really really dun want to regret in time to come.. A's really determine our university admission, our university course, our career path and our future..I am responsible for my own future.. so all the more I should start now.
and dunno y.. dun feel like gg out these days..I am guilty.. had been too playful for the past year.. in the past, the tot of gg out excites me but now, it no longer do that.. I feel that I shld spend more time on my work.. just like yesterday. I was so frustrated cos gg out seems to be a waste of time, waiting at the bball court, window shopping at the mall.. all these.. seems to be so unconstructive.. and everytime when I reached home, I am so tired tat I fall asleep when I hit the bed..it will be better if I can spend the time on my notes instead.. so I decided not to go out unless necessary.. and I mean it.. not on weekdays and all the more not on weekends.. I wanna stay in sch to mug!!
x.i.n.h.u.i