was on the mrt several days ago.. and sitting on one side of the train, I was looking out of the window opposite me. Realise the red MRT line does has nice scenery too.. along the Sembawang and Choa Chu Kang direction..
Because I am sitting opposite, I can only have a limited view of the view outside. We passed by buildings, greenery, lakes, reservoirs. It came to mind vividly that when I was younger, I would just climb onto the seat, kneel and look at the full scenery outside the window. I remembered just a beautiful picture outside would make me happy. I dun really noe exactly wat was happiness and unhappiness.To me, during that time, I was happy because I get to eat a Mac ice cream cone/get to play in the playground. I was unhappy when I got a scolding. Simple as that. Happiness and unhappiness can be a line away. Give me a scolding, I will cry. But give me a balloon, and I will break my tears into smiles.
As ppl gets older, things change. We know more and expect more. We start making unrealistic demands of others and of ourselves, making it hard to feel contented and satisfied. When u r unhappy, it gets difficult to make u smile. But when u r happy, it is relatively easy for u to frown.
Likewise, longing to go back into the past is an unrealistic demand. I no longer envy all the young children nor do I long to go back into time. Cos wat has happened has already happened. In fact, I am really grateful that I still have these beautiful memories to keep. They will be the force to keep me going.
最近看了部觉得很不错的电视剧，名 新不了情。
故事大纲看似老掉牙，但看了几集却不知觉继续追看了整部剧。
故事里的女主角是私生女，从小又得了白血病，因此遭到有钱的父亲抛弃。。
在大家都不存希望之际，她坚强的活了下来。。
母亲和舅舅在庙街卖唱，勉强糊口。同父异母的妹妹却含着金钥匙长大，要什么有什么。
十几年后，女主角长成了个个性开朗，乐观的女孩子，心中没存丝毫愤怒，妒忌。
她，知道生命的可贵，开心的过着每一天。。
眼前的日子是幸福的，和父亲继母相忍，找到了甜蜜的恋情，正在要结婚之际，她的病复发了。
正如女主角所说的，为什么这一切要发生在她最幸福的时候？
看着看着，为女主角感到阵阵心酸，跟着她的眼泪，我也不禁落泪。
我能明白，当一个人前头一片光明时，有着很多想要完成的事时，生命却不得以得喊停的那种感受。
就好像恐怖分子的一抢，让有着大好前景的女子丧命一样，人生无常，今天根本不知明天事。
在面对死亡的那一刻，我们以往的物质追求是否还是那么重要？金钱，地位，名利，是否还有意思？
人类再次显得肤浅渺小。我们可以发明一千一万件东西，却未必能逃过我们的宿命。
时间一到，我们也还是得上去报道。
我们可以把生活埋没在物质追求里，却在最后一刻恍然发现一切皆是空。
既然逃不过命运，那，就不理世俗眼光，follow your heart 好好活着吧，反正到头来，别人的看法也会变得不重要。
x.i.n.h.u.i