I tot I am not going to update today..but I am now..hahaz..at first, I cannot think of anything to write and it is no use forcing me to..it will all sound so fake..but after 2 hours online, I have some thoughts and decided to get it posted..lolz..
First, I have been sorting out some of the neoprints that Van send me..and the more I see them, the more I miss S.H.I.T..I got that feeling of going to cry again..it is not the first time..I tot I am going to be fine after a few more weeks, but nopez..it is not going to help..I still miss them as much..Whenever I recall the days we spent in CCHS, in our classroom..all is so heartwarming..I feel so comfortable in CCHS that I can scream out loud wherever I am in school like I am at home..call out loud to someone downstairs or at the bball court..Bin, Sy and I can always sit together and talk loudly during free periods..During 3 JT times, Sy and I always talk and laugh at our top of our voices without considering other ppl's feelings..then in 4 JT, Bin and I are always there gosiping away, irritating Jiong-ge..hahaz..he always give us the look to shut us up..but we don't care..
As I am telling Ying online last nite, we seem to have different types of friends..we talked to them about different things..
I kept thinking of the days I walked out of school with Bin..we always talked about our inner thoughts..she is the person I can confide in..I feel safe confiding in her..I dunno why..she always seem to understand me in a way or another..we seem to be in the same world..Bin taught me be how to live my life..seriously..the reason why I am enthu in class is because of her..I am influenced by her..she introduced me to music..From Arashi to Energy..esp Di Er Ci Ai Shang Ni..if not, I don't listen to music in the past de..I very toot de..like the blog address..hahaz..then she taught me to be honest between friends and don't bottle up our feelings..if we think there is something the other party should change, we should tell them..
Sy and I talked about crap..hahaz..no lah..we kept crapping away, teasing one another, giving each other names..calling her my white tiger and she calling me cat..we even talked about touring Vienna when we graduated from university and go out to society to work..all these..very lame..but very memorable as well..it helps to cheer me up when I am down..sometimes when I am in a bad mood, as long as we get into the lame mood, we can go crazy and I will forget all my troubles..Sy showed me how to be demure..lolz..at first she eat things very slow de..then I still can remember the first time I saw her eating fish and chips..she looked so si wen..like wanting to cut the fish into pieces of the same size. hahaz..but after time with us..she changed abit..she no longer eat so slow..is moderate..but she says she is still the slowest among her JC friends..lolz..
Van and I talked abt sch..we never fail to have fun teasing ppl..from Yuxiang to Hanjie..lolz..we had a lot of fun together..we always spend our time discussing the dramas and TV shows.. Ying, she and I always go back together after Interact..those days....
However, I am unsure.. I am not sure whether our friendship will stop here..or continue until we go into adulthood..am I thinking too far? I don't think so.. I mean we confirm is want to continue lah..that's the best..but if we really go into different JCs, we will be leading different lives..what interests one may not interests the other..will we still have unlimited topics to talk about? Besides these, we will all be busy..in our JC lives..can we find time to meet?
Next, I don't know what happened to me..I actually blew my top today..in front of my friends..I seldom do that..ok, I only did it 1 time..this is the 2nd..I have spent 2 hors queueing for the Alpha 8 ride..too many ppl and there is no exact queue..everything is in a mess..and just when it was going to be our turn in a few more rides..ppl start cutting queue..gosh..and there are guys..not gentlemen at all..haiz..and I was there complaining, grumbling loudly.. thinking back, if I am in the normal state of mind, I wouldn't do that..I would just let it go..or just grumble in my heart and not voice it out..I don't know what happened to me at that sec..but I was really pissed off..however, now that I have calm down..I realised it is only a small matter..hahaz..but y do I show my feelings so easily these days? I don't know..
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