there may be a lot of things that we just realise.. but they are too late.. always tot that entertaining ppl, making them laugh is a gd thing.. makes your friend happy and u urself will be amused by ur entertaining skills too.. but this isn't always the case.. sometimes.. I wonder.. y ls and I are always the butt of the jokes? We are only talking to one another yet ppl take it that they are having free entertainment.. are we really that funny? or we tried to be? or is all this natural?? I really no idea and I have no energy currently to think of it too..
here, I sincerely apologize to my friends.. after reading some blog entries, I felt that I had messed up the whole dinner on fri.. I didn't now everyone was feeling so sad and reluctant that day.. if I knew.. I would have shut up throughout the whole dinner.. Ls and me had messed up the whole atmosphere that day.. shouldn't have so much laughter.. and to think that I didn't even observe my friends shedding tears.. I apologize again for my insensitivity.. perharps u r all right.. I am oblivious to the surroundings except to ls.. things shouldn't be like this.. Thinking back, the tot of me laughing away when all my friends are feeling so down inside makes me unforgivable.. and the tot of y I am still so happy that day makes me a sinner.. I feel like I am inhumane..
but, to clarify..feeling happy on the outside doesn't mean I dun feel sad on the inside.. but just forgive me that I am one who uses external emotions to mask my inner feelings.. and for this, I have committed a selfish act.. forgive me, friends..
x.i.n.h.u.i