mood swings recently..
a scene on the mrt yesterday. There are 2 brothers, with the same haircut. I like the elder one more. The younger one was sitting on his mother's lap and the elder one sitting on a seat by hiimself. Anyway, things were fine until they become noisy. I glanced in their direction and saw the younger bro keep hitting his brother's head. He seems to think it is fun hitting his bro's head.. keep smiling broadly throughout.. Dunno if u all can imagine, but I got angry immediately when I saw it.
If u r asking me y I am angry, it is becos I am angry for the elder bro. I am angry y their parents didn't put a stop to it. Why must he get hit on his head by his younger bro? It makes no sense. He shld be the one to bully his younger bro instead if anyone is to get hit. And oh plse, the elder bro seem to be enjoying it all.. foolish. I know they are just playing and I may be making a big fuss out of nothing.. but I am still angry. To me, parents shld stop their children in time to prevent any siblings' 'fights'. Worse, if parents show favourtism, the favoured one will bully the other siblings, which is something I will not tolerate in the past, present and in the future.
And I seriously think it is unfair to the one who get bullied. This not only apply between siblings, between ppl too. Seeing the smiles on the 2 boys, I suddenly realised how pure their minds are. To them, they dun take offence, in fact they may not even realise they are at the disadvantaged end. They were just happy that someone is playing with them. Yet, as we grow up, we see and learn more abt our environment. I can't help feeling that we will be at disadvantage if we dun fight for things ourselves. I dun trust this world, I realise. Maybe I am too sensitive but after graduating frm tj, going into the working environment made me realise lots of things. Relationships with one another are essentially politics. And what I can do for myself is to speak up and fight for the benefits on my own. Nobody is gg to care abt u if u r gg to remain quiet in a corner.
Just like you can't reverse a cloth which is being cut into pieces, our mindset cannot be reversed back to the state it is orginally in..
anyway, I am just wondering whether anybody believe in inborn character.. some ppl chose to believe that our characters are mould in the process of growing up. But I chose to believe the other. I believe in inborn character. This also indirectly mould us into what we are today because different characters will look at issues differently.
x.i.n.h.u.i