凝固的回忆

great.. actually my 2nd newest post (including this) becomes a blank after I type close to 500 words on it.. but nvm.. no use getting angry over it.. maybe there's something wrong with blogger..

anyway, work.. gets more complicated.. I am starting to feel the stress.. take the least calls everyday.. be the one who has the worse performance in my grp and among all my temp staff.. I think till here, only angel understands.. I am really not gd in this job.. I am not confident as my other collaegues to take on any enquires and it makes me wonder whether they is anything I am gd in.. really.. how am I gg to make it in society in a few years time? and reality really sucks.. it sucks always.. I may live in my own world, but I hate to see my world being crushed in the hands of crude reality.

What's more.. I feel sorry towards my tl.. got a feeling that I am a burden to her grp.. argh.

great great.. just continue to let me feel I am useless.. and...... I dunno wat will happen next..

As I sat on the bus passing by TJ yesterday, I knew it is over. everything is over. I had completed my 2 year journey. In this 600+ days, I have saw, have felt, have learnt and have gained what I know will be one of the best assets of my life.

Tears, sweat, laughter, joy. Happiness, sadness, anger, bitterness. There is just too much for me to note down into words.

Remember that..

I felt useless when I felt that my J1 tutors didn't believe in me.

We ponned PW using the blood donation drive as an excuse. We would rather donate blood because we can then dun go for both PE and PW. : )

how our clique formed, from vera, sam, ls and me all the way to the big family now..

and the dui lian times me and ls had.. the staircase incident and also thw worksheets falling off incident..

how the kk and ls rumors started becos they are both wearing the delta hous tee in PW lesson.

we dun care a damm and used to be very late for lessons. Toilet trips are a must in between lessons and how I got into trouble with Lofthouse because of my lateness.

I borrowed Yuxiang's tutorial to class and was caught by Ivan Lim on the first day of his lesson.

I was angry when Miss Yee 'accused' me of not putting effort in my work when I did.

I cried because I am down with dengue and my Civics tutor wouldn't let me take my promos in sch.

I felt helpless when I have to be thick-skinned to approach my tutors one by one to beg them to give me gd remarks in order for me to promote to J2. That period, some of the teachers aren't exactly nice with their words..

the period when I was threatened that I have to go poly if my class tests don't make the grade.

we ponned the school sports meet and miss tay was so worried that the whole class wouldn't turn up..

we slacked in the lep room and made lots of friends there.. ppl like Jiamin, Moon, Chao Kiat, Zhenbin..

we studied in the library together but ended up in the bball court at the end of the day.. and when we were stopped by the VP, it still didn't stop us, we went opposite TJ to play.

the frequent trips made down to east coast, to watch the sunset together..

the kbox trips we made on wkends and the numerous stayovers we had at Jes's place..

the make-up PEs we did together as we always ponned the lessons.. skipping suddenly becomes very fun when we are doing it together.

we lie on the bball court, looking at the night sky counting the stars..

the class chalets we had.. esp in year one where it bonded everyone together..

there are still lots and lots of experiences I can nvr forget and most importantly, I found a super fantastic bunch of friends who are for life....