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Sunday, April 15, 2007
无奈者 posted at 11:02 PM

browsing thru tj pics again.. and as usual, memories flooded back..

the feeling is sad.. looking thru the pics.. thinking abt then.. and abt now.. we have changed.. I have changed, at least. and to be honest, I am ashamed abt my change. I had no idea what I had subject my friends to until... I had upset my dearest pals, and I sincerely apologise for that. I apologise too.. for only realising that after the outbreak. If I had been more observant, maybe all that wouldn't have happen..

however, I know an apology isn't enough.. actually, after the accident, I dunno how to face u guys..I may not show it but I actually feel awkward in all your presence..I am reluctant to let go of our friendships but at the same time at a loss when I am facing u guys.. I feel guilty cos of wat I had done, all the unhappiness I have caused, all the trouble I had created..

and worse of all, I am not a worthy person, worthy daughter, worthy sister and not even a worthy friend. Incidents happen one after another.. my mind is in a mess. I need to think properly. I need to be clear headed.. but can I? I am confused, hurt, sad, preoccupied.. does that help? not at all. I need time and like the skies will clear after the rain, hopefully I will sort out my problems one by one.. and things to turn out fine.